Constant refreshment in religious teachings is vital to be consistent in our religion. As we are surrounded by people of various backgrounds and activities. We sometimes follow worldly evil either by seeing them or through their persuasion. We are not angels to be perfect in everything. Allah created us like that. He created us with free will and angels without it . What we can do in those times is to repent and invoke Allah to shower his mercy on us.
Allah tells us in the Quran:
But whoever repents after his wrongdoing and reforms, indeed, Allāh will turn to him in forgiveness. Indeed, Allāh is Forgiving and Merciful. (Quran: 5:39)
But afterwards stay away from the environment that made you sin, as being cohesive again makes you vulnerable for satan. He will make you feel like that Allah(swt) has forgiven your previous sin and so this will be the first sin in your account book.
This comes from mere misconception that its only because of our deeds we enter Jannah(paradise). We enter only if Allah has mercy on us , no matter how much righteous we are. And Allah will look at our hearts , he knows how much sincere and pious are His slaves .
"Narrated Aishah (radhi-yallaahu 'anhaa): The Prophet (sal-Allaahu `alayhe wa sallam) said, “Do good deeds properly, sincerely and moderately, and receive good news because one's good deeds will not make him enter Paradise.” They asked, “Even you, O Allah's Messenger?” He said, “Even I, unless and until Allah protects me with His pardon and His Mercy." |
Sahih Al-Bukhari, Vol. 8, Hadith No. 474 |
Actually in the first time repenting we will come to know about its acceptance or rejection only on the day of judgement. This fear of uncertainity has to be a guard for repeating sins.
At the same time don’t lose hope regarding mercy of Allah, as he is the most loving and most merciful. Your beating heart is the proof for his mercy. Man, your stay here is for a little time, maximum 100 years.Hundered years approximately equals to 8,76,600 hours. You can decide your destiny , and it is either Paradise or blazing hell.
Abstaining from all sorts of sins is the real quality of a muthaqi (pious). May Allah (swt) bless us to be a muthaqi. Ameen.
We all are from Allah(swt) and certainly to Him is our return.